ENOUGH Already

OK this may come off as rude but really at this point I don't care.

We have 3 beautiful children. Yes we had them very close together, the last one was a real shocker. Having number 2 and 3 only 17 months apart was not ideal but it's worked and our little boy is such a blessing to us.

Do we want more kids? NO
Do we need more kids? NO
Have we done anything permanent to prevent having more kids? Not that it's any of your business but NO!

I am so sick of everyone asking me when #4 is coming along and if we don't want anymore when is my hubby getting the snip. Everytime I turn around it's when is Chris getting the snip, has Chris gone in for the "procedure" yet? If you want it done do it to you Christi, why does Chris have to do it? All of it just makes me want to scream!

The good ol' snippity snip is a little expensive, even when you do have great benefits from work. If you want it done by a doctor that is worth a damn and you don't want one of those swimming baby makers to sneak in somehow it's going to cost some serious money. Money that frankly I don't have right now.

LOOK the procedure costs money, my BC pills do not. We have 3 mouths to feed plus our own in a terrible economy so BACK OFF! It's really none of your business.

I feel better now...

Never Fails

Welp, here I am, a national ad campaign on the line and my voice is shot. I took good care of it this weekend, really I did. I didn't scream and yell, talked quietly, took meds for my allergies, everything I can think of.

I am suppose to lay my voice down at 3pm and I don't sound 100%. My first ever job for voice and the instrument is broken.

It NEVER fails. NOTHING goes my way lately. Just when I think things are going in the right direction, BAM I get knocked up side the head.

Well we shall see how today goes, hopefully the voice will pull through and they still like me enough to keep me on the campaign.

-C-

Again and again and again...

I've started this blog post over about 12 times and keep getting interrupted with something.



Now I've decided to put the headphones on while in the studio to put off the sign of "stay the hell out I'm working." Doesn't always work because eventually someone comes in about something that has nothing to do with anything important, or just someone that wants to argue because for some reason it's fun to them.


As far as my weight loss goes, I'm holding steady which I'm really happy about. I eat things I shouldn't and I know it but I try to run or do something athletic daily to help the good out weigh the bad. All my clothes are still slightly too big, except my new pair of Miss Me Jeans. They are a size 30! Yes a 30! Never thought I would be able to say that. Granted they are a little tight because in all honesty I could have used a 31 but they are already stretched a little bit after wearing them for one day. So I'm happy. Happy with the way I look, happy with what I weigh and happy about what I've accomplished.


So I guess I should really change the point of this blog. Lately I've needed to vent a lot so I write things down just to get them out of my mind. Kind of like Dumbledore does in Harry Potter with the pensieve (sp?).

Maybe this can be my vent place. The only thing about that is I know there are work people, God bless them, that read this blog and if I say anything about work they will automatically think that it's about them. Which sometimes, not gonna lie, it may be but this isn't the place to tell them what I think about them. I'll just keep writing those things down and then putting them in the office shredder.

So what shall I use this little thought space for? Parenting advice? Nah, even when I try to give it I'm basically told I'm a bad parent. Product advice? Only if I get freebees (hint hint). I can talk about my kids all day long from their latest milestones to the color of their poop. I do that enough already and I think I'm driving some people crazy. Marital advice? Nah not so good at that either, well I can figure out my own marriage but not anyone else.

Hmmm I will figure it out, I could give the secrets that I've learned about country stars that I have worked with...wait no I need my job.

Eventually when I write again I will have focus....maybe.

-C-

Deep Thoughts by Christi

I've been a bad blogger...neglecting my blog and all. Things at work have been a little hectic and home is getting busier and busier as Summer approaches. Chris is wrapping up the year getting ready for Summer school, eventhough I'm secretly praying he gets a new job and can't do Summer school. Chloe turned 4, Cayleigh turned 2 and Cash is almost 8 months. Chloe starts dance in June and she's overly excited asking me everday what day she starts. Little stinker.

As for me and my weight loss I'm doing well. I reached my goal of losing 40 pounds and I'm keeping it off. Now I'm running everyday. It's doing wonders for my waistline and my legs. Not to mention my sanity. Now if I could just find time to get a tan.

Since I've neglected my blog so much I feel that I need to catch up on a little "news."

-All My Children is cancelled!
OH MY WORD! Do you know what this means to my world? I have watched this show for as long as I can remember! My mom use to tape it and come home and watch after work or she would sit late at night on the couch with her sunflower seeds catching up on her stories. Then I got all caught up in it once I was sitting in my dorm room eating Freebirds and drinking REAL coke, not diet, watching AMC when I was suppose to be in class or studying! So tragic. What will the world be without Erica Kane! Oh and the latest story line with the baby in the box and Erica having an evil twin sister...ahhhhh!

-Dancing With The Stars
OK so this season has been a little blah. It's not one of those sesasons where if I miss it I freak out and watch it online the next day, no. I do have to say that Kirstie Alley is a freaking champ and I love her. Ralph Macchio, I probably spelled that wrong, is totally wearing a toupe, come on, you know it. I don't even know who the Chelsea chick is with Mark Ballas and Hines Ward is Ah-May-ZING!

-Castle
Best show on TV! The season finale was hands down the greatest ever, can't wait until the new season, already having withdrawls. WATCH IT PEOPLE!

-Ashton Kutcher taking Charlie Sheen's place on 2.5 Men
LOSING!

-Osama is dead
Hellz to the yeah!

-Sperminator
OK have you seen Maria Shriver? She's a freaking skeleton with hair, wouldn't you sleep with the maid too? He's Mr. Universe for Heaven's Sake and well Karma is a you know what and she's a Kennedy so someone is getting her back. (I know I'm a terrible woman for not feeling bad for her)

-Stupid people
The reason I run

So that should catch you up on what's going on in my life and somewhat the world. Hope all is well. I promise I'm going to be better...and add some pictures or something.

~Christi

Slowing Down

I have lost 39 pounds (almost it's like 38.8 so I'm saying 39). I'm a new person. I eat differently, I live differently, I shop differently...ha ha ha. I still think I can lose more but I'm not on such a mission now as I was before.

The weight loss is slowing down while work is getting busier than ever, which is why I think the weight loss is slowing. Work is kicking my butt. So I'm continuoulsy trying to find things to distract me.

I know it doesn't seem right but I have to have brain breaks so I go online and enjoy a little humor. Currently it is www.damnyouautocorrect.com. This is a site, if you don't know, where people post their "auto-correct" problems with their phones while texting or emailing. I myself have fallen victim to auto-correct A LOT lately.

Recently the hubby texted me something about a certain date on our calendar and what we have going on. My phone took my reply to his text and turned it all in circles, and if I offend...sorry, this is what my phone read...

"you can take Chloe to the dictor for her shits."

Should have read...

"you can take Chloe to the DOCTOR for her SHOTS!"

Oh that had me laughing all day. Of course it got me to thinking, who are the perverts that run this technology that they would turn words into such a thing. An innocent little text turns into vulgar language. Now we all know that I have a mouth like a sailor so I'm sure the hubby was like "whatever Christi." I digress.

Do yourself a favor and visit for a laugh, BUT I warn you some of it is a little pornographic, which those are even funnier.

C

License for Parenting

This is totally NOT weight loss related but I had to vent so here it goes.

They should give out licenses to be a parent. Seriously. Sitting in line at the kids school this morning waiting to drop them off I saw a probably 4 year old hopping from front seat to back seat. No big deal right? I thought, oh she probably popped her car seat strap off and is just waiting to go in...not so. There was no car seat...none. This child was not tall enough for just a booster, nor did I see one in the car. Trust me I drive a tank I can see in all cars. So how long had this little girl been hopping from seat to seat? The whole way to school? THEN I notice the parent smoking...WITH THE WINDOWS ROLLED UP! Hello? McFly? Have you heard the effects of second hand smoke on children? Smoke if you want to but please don't expose your child to it. I don't know why this bothered me so much today. It just did.

There are a lot of things bothering me lately when it comes to kids. I see on the news a small child witnessed it's father shooting it's mother (she lived) and then the father killed himself. How terrible for that baby to see that.

All I want to do is be with my babies. I want more than anything to be able to stay home with them and nurture them. I want to be able to be at every event they have and every play and choir program. I want to see every milestone they hit. How can you be a parent and not want that? Some may call me overprotective, or a little nuts about my kids but they were the miracles given to me as a gift. You don't just throw that gift away.

This just struck me today. I know people that have struggled year after year to have a kid. They have struggled to the point where they have to face the fact that they will never be parents. So to those of you (us) that have been blessed to become parents, stop and think about what you have and don't take it for granted. What if they did give licenses for parenting, would you pass?

IT'S OVER

RODEO has ended! THANK YOU LORD! It's not that it's that bad going to rodeo every night and meeting the stars BUT and some of you may not believe this, I would much rather be with my family at home. Kudos to my husband for dealing with this animal for 3 weeks. A special thanks to my parents and his for helping when they could. Oh and thanks to the best neighbors in the world for reaching out to Chris when he needed it. I'm going to add a few pictures at the end of this post so you can see what Rodeo is ALL about.

I can say that I managed to not gain ANY weight during rodeo, well I did gain .5 a pound at one point but quickly knocked that off. It was a lot of fun to be one of the almost skinny bitches at rodeo this year. It's been a long time coming and I LOVED it! I really enjoyed being able to shop and actually find my size. I didn't buy anything but some jewelry because I cannot justify getting a t-shirt that costs 80 bucks because it has some "blingy" stuff on it. I can justify buying a second pair of MissMe jeans during rodeo because my other ones got TOO BIG! They really are the most comfortable jeans I've ever worn so they are worth the 80+ dollars.

So I'm officially down 32 pounds, that's only 5 pounds away from my original goal of 37 pounds which would bring me to 190. That's all I wanted, to be under 200 for the first time in 4 years. WOW, I actually just said how much I weigh. Huge step for me, I use to hide how much I really weighed because I was ashamed that I weighed more that Chris and over 200. I wouldn't even tell Chris, I would just say I'm in a 14 so don't worry about it. Truth was I was squeezing into a 14 those days.

Anyway I think I'm going to go for more weight loss. Mainly because I want to give myself a little wiggle room. I have gone back on the meal replacement plan at PWLC, which I'm actually excited about. I can tell you that I did cheat a couple of times during rodeo and BOY did it hurt! My body doesn't want the CRAP anymore and I love it. I may shoot for 40-50 pounds total lost.

So this is a warning of sorts, I'm back on meal replacement which if I recall turned me into a megabitch after 3 weeks so we will see how long I can do it and see how much I can get off. Who knows maybe I'll wear a bikini this Summer...after 3 kids...I DON'T THINK SO no matter how SKINNY I get!

Gary Allan

Clay Walker

Billy Currington

So...Tired...Must...Go...On...

Rodeo has begun...not like it use to be. There was a time when I did the morning show then I would rodeo it up until almost midnight just to come home and start all over at 2am without a blink of an eye. Yeah not so much anymore.

It's good though. It's funny how my eating habits have changed at rodeo. My first stop use to be the first fried food booth you could see. Then the next stop was some sort of ice cream or sweet stuff. Man those funnel cakes are hard to pass up. Fair food is some of the best, sorry it is. Fried twinkies, oreos, snickers, now they have deep fried bacon. Makes me sick just thinking about it.

Now I get to rodeo and it's shopping, looking for the cutest bling anything I can find. Now I can actually fit into those beautiful bling things. In fact, I've made friends with some of the vendors and I'm getting percentages off everywhere kind of like my weight is falling off everywhere. It's fun when you don't have to try things on, you KNOW it is going to fit. I guess that's what happens when you lose 30 pounds. Yes only 7 more to go to reach the 37 pound goal but I think I'm going to go for 40 or 50. Can you imagine?

Now I'm not going to lie, I have indulged a little bit. The beer was flowing freely at cook-off, but with all the walking and lack of fried food I pushed the pounds away. I use to be the first to fill my plate of food in the suite before rushing to a meet and greet, now just a bite here and there. I HAVE taken a bite of the famous potato salad that's in the suite, but just a taste, not a scarf it down moment. I make better choices on my indulgences, a piece of sausage here, a bite of brisket there, a little dab of salsa with a few chips.

It's like a whole new me. I don't even really crave bad food. I crave things like salad, mmmm salad, and grilled chicken, or a nice piece of steak, maybe fajitas without the tortilla. It's weird. I think my brain has finally made the switch. Could this be the skinny me coming out? Am I becoming the skinny bitch I have always wanted to be? We shall see...

For now I leave you with a picture from the past week...

MissMe NO MORE

I HAVE ARRIVED

These are the MissMe jeans I have been waiting for!

I did it! 25 pounds down and I found my MissMe Jeans!! These are the ones that I have wanted from the start and they are mine! Whew! Only 12 more pounds before I reach my goal of being under 200 pounds. I will probably keep going after that to make myself lose 40 maybe 45 pounds, but one step at a time. I have to get through rodeo and all those temptations first.

It's going to be weird being at rodeo and not being able to just eat whatever the heck I want. Being pregnant the last two rodeos was pretty awesome with all the great fair food. I'm just going to have to keep myself away from Reliant Center where all of that is. Of course that is where all the shopping is too so that should be fun. Maybe if I put clothespins on my nose.

It's a good week because of these fitting today. Now to keep my head down and keep going.

C

Being Better

Weight Update....(picture that little news ticker here)..... 22 POUNDS! YES! I am only 15 pounds away from my goal. I am blown away by my focus on this diet. I may be tooting my own horn but I'm really proud of myself so back off. Wow that was nice of me to say...3..2...1...I'm really proud of myself and I hope you are too, that's what we do in radio when we want to start over, we just have to say 3, 2, 1 and it's like the first thing we said never happened.


So The World Championship BBQ Cook-off is next week and that's like the start of crazy season around here. I only go to 2 of the nights now instead of 3 which is probably smart since I haven't had any alcohol really since I started this whole life transformation. This is also the time limit I gave myself to fit into my MissMe jeans, well that's not going to happen. They don't make them in my size which is a lot smaller than it use to be but still you have to be a 10 before you can even get a pair. Oh well there are other bling-bling jeans that do make my size and I'm on the hunt.


I started this blog entry today with tears in my eyes. I was sent a video link from one of my record folks about one of his artists Jennette McCurdy. She is starting her music career but is already quite famous. For those of you that don't know she is on the Nickelodeon show iCarly. She plays Sam Puckett. You can find her here: http://www.jennettemccurdy.com/. Anyway... in the video they showed her going into a mall to play for a crowd...a VERY large crowd. After she does a meet and greet, and all these kids are waiting patiently to meet Jennette. Then there was this one little girl that they get a closeup of meeting Jennette. You can just see in her face that this is the biggest moment in her life. This has made her day, she could die right now and be happy. That's what got me.


I started thinking of Chloe, Cayleigh and Cash and all the opportunities they have in front of them. Then I started thinking about all the things they are going to get to do that other kids won't because of my job. I have worked so hard to get where I am, that work pays off. It's like I had an epiphany. Yes I'm trying to lose weight, it sucks sometimes, but losing the weight will make me healthier, which will keep me on this Earth longer, which means more time to make sure I'm the best person ever. So from here on out that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to be better. A better mom, a better wife, a better friend, a better co-worker, a better daughter, etc.


To start I'm not going to let one person ruin my whole day. Instead I'm going to remind myself of how I want my kids to see me. I don't want the kids to see me come home frustrated everyday, so I'm not going to let the stupid little things get to me. I want my kids to grow up confident in themselves and know that no matter what happens around them they are loved and the greatest little beings on Earth. That they can do ANYTHING they want in life if they put their mind to it. I want to show them that there is more to life than work. It's a big world, and sometimes it's tough and you have to do things you don't want but you will be a better person in the long run.

That's why I deleted my previous post. If you happened to catch it before I did it was about someone who constantly steals the joy out of my day here at work. I decided instead of letting this person get to me, because she does, I'm going remember that she may not even know how she is. She doesn't have many friends and I remember what that was like growing up and it wasn't fun, so I can imagine what it is like to be a grown adult and have no friends also. Maybe if I continue to be nice to her, even when I don't want to be, that this will make her have an epiphany and become a better person also.

To go back to my original thought at the start of this. One day that could be my little girl that some little girl is looking up to remembering that day for the rest of her life. I want to make sure that if it is, that my little girl grew up confident and not letting the big bad world get the best of her. Also that she had a mommy that found the best in herself and everyone else and that she does the same.

Have a great day!

C

You Look Great....

Not that I don't appreciate the compliments, I had to say that first! Now...

Was I that hideous before? I mean the looks and the wows I get now because I've lost 21 pounds are lovely, really they are. I wanna know where those people were when I was fat. I mean I'm still plump, not gonna lie, but I must have been huge the way people are reacting to the weight loss.

"OH MY GOD CHRISTI YOU LOOK AMAZING!"

This coming from someone that said I looked great after having Cash. Then it was, "Oh my goodness you look just like you did before Cash was born!" LIARS!

Yes being fat you get discriminated against, it's true. Just go to any normal department store and there is a WHOLE section for fat people. They try to play it off by calling it the "WOMEN'S" section, they should just put a huge sign blinking and flashing..."YO YOU CAN'T FIT IN THAT...YOUR SECTION IS RIGHT HERE!" Then you have to buy two seats on a plane, sorry but that makes sense to me, just for my own personal comfort I would buy two seats. You probably aren't going to get a job no matter how wonderful you are, if it's between you and the skinny person, the skinny person wins. It doesn't mean fat people are ugly. It doesn't mean they, or should I say we, aren't amazing people.

I get it you don't want to tell someone they look like crap. Believe me I have been that person, I did it just last week, to someone I really really don't like.

If I look this GREAT now how did you REALLY think I looked before? Was I ugly? Was I not the fabulous person I am today? Just makes me wonder...

FOOD

I'm 20 pounds down as of yesterday! That's HUGE for me. I woke up like a new woman today.

I did decide to change my plan and start eating food again. I was doing a meal replacement plan that gave me 800 calories a day. It was great during the week because of the time constraint but the weekends were KILLING me (see previous post). So now I have a choice, I can replace a meal or have real food. That could be why I woke up so happy today too. I had cereal for breakfast, it was the greatest small bowl of cereal in my entire life.

Now for my thoughts on the Bachelor...this post has been coming for awhile but I can't wait any longer after last night...

1. Brad is a douche! Seriously the guy can barely put sentences together. He isn't good looking enough to be that dumb.

2. Come on ladies quit crying! You have known this guy for what 4 weeks and you are so devastated that you are crying so much you can't speak? Really? Honey, you're a gorgeous young lady that has a job, and you're skinny to top it off, and you're on national TV crying over not getting picked by a douchey famewhore who will probably not pick someone in the end anyway! I know your ego may be hurt because YOU decided to put yourself out there, on national TV...I'm just saying. What kind of example are you setting for the young women of America. Grows some balls and stand up for yourself and get out there in your own hometown, with men that are actually worth something and get you a man.

3. I seriously think Brad went back on the Bachelor for the cool trips he gets out of it. I mean they are going to Costa Rica next week, then Anguilla, THEN safari in South Africa. Really? Are you sure you're going to pick someone this time Brad or are you going to milk this therapy thing for all it's worth.

4. Emily - Honey you are GORGEOUS and what a strong person you are. Go and find yourself a real man and not this freaking weirdo, he will probably break your heart. SIDENOTE: I still don't understand women that leave there children at home to come on this show. Because that's smart, "bye sweetie mommy's gonna go on TV to find you a new daddy. You're going to see him kiss a bunch of other women and mommy all at the same time but I'm going to get a rose to move on so it's no big deal. This is how it all really works in life." Anyway Emily send yourself home. You are better than this crap.

5. Ashley whatever you last initial is: GET OVER IT

6. Chantal: SEE #5

7. Michelle you are NUTS! Crazy may bring ratings but crazy don't bring diamonds. You are Brad actually deserve eachother I think. He's an idiot and you're wacko, it works.

I know, I know...gosh Christi don't hold back and why do you even watch the show.

I don't know it's like I'm addicted, there must be some sort of subliminal message running in there somewhere that has Pei Wei attached to it that makes me watch.

Til next time...

C

BIG Day in Weight Loss Land

Big things could happen today in weight loss land...

1. It's the GRAND OPENING of my weight loss angels, Physicians Weight Loss Center, in Clear Lake. I have an appearance there this afternoon and I'm hoping it's a HUGE success for them because they deserve it. Such a great group of women there that are SO motivating and kind and freaking awesome.

2. With that said this could also be a huge day and I'm thinking I'm going to hit the 20 pound lost mark. On Friday I went in and had lost 18 pounds so I'm thinking today is a big day!

It's been a rough weekend. Yesterday especially, I wanted to just rip through something bad for me. I was SOOO hungry. The weekends really are the hardest.

I was watching the marathon yesterday and thought to myself I should do this when I lose the weight...then I remembered how my coaches tortured me with running and said nah never mind.

Here's to the BIG Loser day!

Singing

Down 16 POUNDS!! It's crazy. I was thinking about it yesterday. Cash weighs 18 almost 19 pounds. I complain about how hard it is to carry that kid around daily. He's a heavy little thing and my back hurts every night having to bounce him to sleep. A few more pounds and that's what I will have lost off my body. I carried that around on my body and it didn't bother me. Just NUTS!

Ok now to why I titled this singing...

I love to sing, LOVE it. Sometimes I wish I wasn't the athlete that I was in high school and would have focused on my voice more. Granted I use my voice daily, but not the way I dream to.

Singing is such a great way to make a bad day better. There are songs for every occasion.

Just think if I would have really focused on that talent in school this could be me...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IwDYZ8L24nQ

Well...

Random Thoughts...

I'm down 15lbs. now...go me! Of course I've been sick as a dog and don't even want to put anything in my mouth so that helps. I am actually dying for Pei Wei today, mainly because I think their Kung Pao Shrimp with brown rice would clear my sinuses up in a minute. Cest la vie...

Since my ENTIRE house was sick all weekend including myself I was up A LOT in the middle of the night which meant A LOT of bad TV including the commercials. Have you seen these commercials where they try to make it not a commercial. Like there is somewhere there "interviewing" another person to where it looks like some sort of talk show. It's 120 seconds of BS. Drives me crazy.

Then there is the commercial for the new Trojan "personal massager." You know the one that is so good it will "blow your hair back." All these bad actresses with their hair gelled to the max with their hair sticking straight back. What the heck is that? I think the funniest part of that commercial is the the one chick that is in camera shot the whole time, and she has to keep her head perfectly straight so you couldn't see her hair all crazy. She looks like a frozen robot just waiting with anticipation to deliver her line, poorly I might add. See for yourself...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N7oMY6sC7wQ

Then the reality shows, seriously, Bridalplasty? Come on ladies really? He already proposed, now you are going to change yourself for who, him? You already got the guy what the heck are you thinking? Real Housewives of (insert city here), who are these women? The cat fighting and the rudeness towards one another is unbelievable. Oh and throwing a 3 year old a birthday party for the cost of a wedding, tell me you aren't living vicariously through your child. Insane. If you want a Real Housewives show follow some of the women I know who do it without nannies and a full staff. I guess that wouldn't be interesting enough for TV.

Now I love me some reality TV, The Bachelor, I have become hooked again. Those chicks are nuts. I have informed all three of my children to NEVER EVER go on a TV show to find their husband or wife. Dancing With The Stars...I wish I were famous enough to be on that show. I think I would be the one partner that Maks would win with. Oh and I'm a Law & Order and NCIS junkie, I can always find one of those on in the middle of the day or night. Drives my husband CRAZY which in turn makes me laugh.

Now back to justifying Kung Pao from Pei Wei...

Frustrations and Food

Thank GOD for me thinking of blogging when I'm hungry because today I could eat an entire cow. It all started this morning when kids right and left started waking up early. Cash the baby at 4:15am, Cayleigh the middle wonder at 5:15am and Chloe the diva 5:45am. At one point this morning, while I was in the shower and daddy was trying to get dressed, they were ALL 3 CRYING! Seriously it would have been immediate birth control for anyone.

Daddy got to go to work as soon as the chaos began, lucky him. I on the otherhand had to endure the deafening screams of the above mentioned angels. Me being SUPERMOM, and yes I said that out loud, all was calm in a matter of 10 minutes. The girls were on the couch with their piece of bread, don't judge it was whole wheat, and watching "their shows." (GOD BLESS NICK JR.) Cash was taking a cat nap in the vibrating chair. This is my chance, hair, make-up, figure out WTF I'm gonna wear in my non-existent wardrobe, and get the girls clothes ready.

Just then...whah from the vibrating chair, screams from the living room, at that point I melted into nothingness. All I wanted to do was throw my hands up and have a chocolate muffin or a HUGE bowl of crunch berry cereal, in all honesty a Big Mac would have done the trick. I'm such a stress eater. I don't know what it is about food that makes me so...happy. Especially when I feel so sad when I do that to myself.

Then it hit me, the image of me in these...

Yes there they are...the elusive MissMe Jeans or "bling-bling" jeans as I like to call them. Look how good that chicks ass looks in there.

So at that point once the screams broke my dream sequence of me running through a grass field with a perfect body and bling bling jeans sparkling in the sun. I pulled myself up by the boot straps, put the big mac out of my mind and went on with the morning.

I know this is going to be a struggle. Especially for someone like me that uses food as her happy place. I weigh in today...if I'm down again I will be re-assured that the stress is worth it.

Christi

And So It Begins...

First I should start by introducing myself...

No not that the kid with the huge bow that doesn't match her shirt...the other one, see me, the chick with the fat rolls. Oh yeah. That's me. Just like I've been off and on my ENTIRE life. Yes the chunky girl, which I'm fine with. I'm a confident woman. Married, 3 kids, a great job, oh and I'm fat.

Seriously I have been a big girl for as long as I can remember. I've done pretty much every diet imaginable. I've starved myself, counted calories, eaten no carbs, drank my meals, taken pills...and it all worked, BUT it ALWAYS came back.

I was lucky enough to be bless with not 1 but 3 beautiful children, all about 2 years apart. So basically I was pregnant for 3 years. I wasn't one of these women that gained a ton of weight while pregnant either, in fact I lost weight. For some reason that trend didn't continue once the babies got here. Hmmmm maybe it was the late night munching on Honey Nut Chex Mix while breastfeeding (don't judge you gotta do something at 3am to keep yourself awake)...

See the little spiral cookie things? That's what got me hooked.

I finally decided I was going to start losing the weight. I was sick of being the only girl at the office who didn't have the fancy "bling-bling" jeans. I was sick of being the fat mom that people just look at and say, "Well she has 3 little ones, she doesn't have time to look good."

It may be vain to want to be the skinny bitch, dangit I got the bitch part down (or so some say) I just need the skinny.

So here it goes, this incredible journey to the skinny me.

I am fortunate enough to have a job that I get the opportunity to endorse some great and not so great things. What I believe came into my life by the grace of GOD is my new client. I have to stop for a moment and say that I'm not starting this blog to promote my new client, I am writing this blog for me, to get it all out, as an outlet for something to do when I'm feeling hungry or having a bad day. I'm a stress eater, so maybe I will be come a stress writer. Now on with the show...

My new client, Physicians Weight Loss Centers (http://www.pwlc.com/), came to my job wanting to advertise. Me being the only fat chick on staff they came to me. Now I had done endorsements for weight loss products and centers before so I was very guarded. I met with the owners and LOVED them immediately. I knew this was going to work. With their motivation and me FINALLY deciding to pay attention to me I was going to do this.

I started on January 10, 2011. It is now January 17 and I am down 9 POUNDS! I can already feel parts of my body losing the weight. The skinny chick is in there, she just has to dig her way out. When she does, maybe this will be me after ...

Gosh a girl can dream...Here's to being a MOTIVATED MAMA!

Christi