Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Being Better

Weight Update....(picture that little news ticker here)..... 22 POUNDS! YES! I am only 15 pounds away from my goal. I am blown away by my focus on this diet. I may be tooting my own horn but I'm really proud of myself so back off. Wow that was nice of me to say...3..2...1...I'm really proud of myself and I hope you are too, that's what we do in radio when we want to start over, we just have to say 3, 2, 1 and it's like the first thing we said never happened.

So The World Championship BBQ Cook-off is next week and that's like the start of crazy season around here. I only go to 2 of the nights now instead of 3 which is probably smart since I haven't had any alcohol really since I started this whole life transformation. This is also the time limit I gave myself to fit into my MissMe jeans, well that's not going to happen. They don't make them in my size which is a lot smaller than it use to be but still you have to be a 10 before you can even get a pair. Oh well there are other bling-bling jeans that do make my size and I'm on the hunt.

I started this blog entry today with tears in my eyes. I was sent a video link from one of my record folks about one of his artists Jennette McCurdy. She is starting her music career but is already quite famous. For those of you that don't know she is on the Nickelodeon show iCarly. She plays Sam Puckett. You can find her here: Anyway... in the video they showed her going into a mall to play for a crowd...a VERY large crowd. After she does a meet and greet, and all these kids are waiting patiently to meet Jennette. Then there was this one little girl that they get a closeup of meeting Jennette. You can just see in her face that this is the biggest moment in her life. This has made her day, she could die right now and be happy. That's what got me.

I started thinking of Chloe, Cayleigh and Cash and all the opportunities they have in front of them. Then I started thinking about all the things they are going to get to do that other kids won't because of my job. I have worked so hard to get where I am, that work pays off. It's like I had an epiphany. Yes I'm trying to lose weight, it sucks sometimes, but losing the weight will make me healthier, which will keep me on this Earth longer, which means more time to make sure I'm the best person ever. So from here on out that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to be better. A better mom, a better wife, a better friend, a better co-worker, a better daughter, etc.

To start I'm not going to let one person ruin my whole day. Instead I'm going to remind myself of how I want my kids to see me. I don't want the kids to see me come home frustrated everyday, so I'm not going to let the stupid little things get to me. I want my kids to grow up confident in themselves and know that no matter what happens around them they are loved and the greatest little beings on Earth. That they can do ANYTHING they want in life if they put their mind to it. I want to show them that there is more to life than work. It's a big world, and sometimes it's tough and you have to do things you don't want but you will be a better person in the long run.

That's why I deleted my previous post. If you happened to catch it before I did it was about someone who constantly steals the joy out of my day here at work. I decided instead of letting this person get to me, because she does, I'm going remember that she may not even know how she is. She doesn't have many friends and I remember what that was like growing up and it wasn't fun, so I can imagine what it is like to be a grown adult and have no friends also. Maybe if I continue to be nice to her, even when I don't want to be, that this will make her have an epiphany and become a better person also.

To go back to my original thought at the start of this. One day that could be my little girl that some little girl is looking up to remembering that day for the rest of her life. I want to make sure that if it is, that my little girl grew up confident and not letting the big bad world get the best of her. Also that she had a mommy that found the best in herself and everyone else and that she does the same.

Have a great day!


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