This is totally NOT weight loss related but I had to vent so here it goes.
They should give out licenses to be a parent. Seriously. Sitting in line at the kids school this morning waiting to drop them off I saw a probably 4 year old hopping from front seat to back seat. No big deal right? I thought, oh she probably popped her car seat strap off and is just waiting to go in...not so. There was no car seat...none. This child was not tall enough for just a booster, nor did I see one in the car. Trust me I drive a tank I can see in all cars. So how long had this little girl been hopping from seat to seat? The whole way to school? THEN I notice the parent smoking...WITH THE WINDOWS ROLLED UP! Hello? McFly? Have you heard the effects of second hand smoke on children? Smoke if you want to but please don't expose your child to it. I don't know why this bothered me so much today. It just did.
There are a lot of things bothering me lately when it comes to kids. I see on the news a small child witnessed it's father shooting it's mother (she lived) and then the father killed himself. How terrible for that baby to see that.
All I want to do is be with my babies. I want more than anything to be able to stay home with them and nurture them. I want to be able to be at every event they have and every play and choir program. I want to see every milestone they hit. How can you be a parent and not want that? Some may call me overprotective, or a little nuts about my kids but they were the miracles given to me as a gift. You don't just throw that gift away.
This just struck me today. I know people that have struggled year after year to have a kid. They have struggled to the point where they have to face the fact that they will never be parents. So to those of you (us) that have been blessed to become parents, stop and think about what you have and don't take it for granted. What if they did give licenses for parenting, would you pass?
Monday, March 21, 2011
RODEO has ended! THANK YOU LORD! It's not that it's that bad going to rodeo every night and meeting the stars BUT and some of you may not believe this, I would much rather be with my family at home. Kudos to my husband for dealing with this animal for 3 weeks. A special thanks to my parents and his for helping when they could. Oh and thanks to the best neighbors in the world for reaching out to Chris when he needed it. I'm going to add a few pictures at the end of this post so you can see what Rodeo is ALL about.
I can say that I managed to not gain ANY weight during rodeo, well I did gain .5 a pound at one point but quickly knocked that off. It was a lot of fun to be one of the almost skinny bitches at rodeo this year. It's been a long time coming and I LOVED it! I really enjoyed being able to shop and actually find my size. I didn't buy anything but some jewelry because I cannot justify getting a t-shirt that costs 80 bucks because it has some "blingy" stuff on it. I can justify buying a second pair of MissMe jeans during rodeo because my other ones got TOO BIG! They really are the most comfortable jeans I've ever worn so they are worth the 80+ dollars.
So I'm officially down 32 pounds, that's only 5 pounds away from my original goal of 37 pounds which would bring me to 190. That's all I wanted, to be under 200 for the first time in 4 years. WOW, I actually just said how much I weigh. Huge step for me, I use to hide how much I really weighed because I was ashamed that I weighed more that Chris and over 200. I wouldn't even tell Chris, I would just say I'm in a 14 so don't worry about it. Truth was I was squeezing into a 14 those days.
Anyway I think I'm going to go for more weight loss. Mainly because I want to give myself a little wiggle room. I have gone back on the meal replacement plan at PWLC, which I'm actually excited about. I can tell you that I did cheat a couple of times during rodeo and BOY did it hurt! My body doesn't want the CRAP anymore and I love it. I may shoot for 40-50 pounds total lost.
So this is a warning of sorts, I'm back on meal replacement which if I recall turned me into a megabitch after 3 weeks so we will see how long I can do it and see how much I can get off. Who knows maybe I'll wear a bikini this Summer...after 3 kids...I DON'T THINK SO no matter how SKINNY I get!
Friday, March 4, 2011
Rodeo has begun...not like it use to be. There was a time when I did the morning show then I would rodeo it up until almost midnight just to come home and start all over at 2am without a blink of an eye. Yeah not so much anymore.
It's good though. It's funny how my eating habits have changed at rodeo. My first stop use to be the first fried food booth you could see. Then the next stop was some sort of ice cream or sweet stuff. Man those funnel cakes are hard to pass up. Fair food is some of the best, sorry it is. Fried twinkies, oreos, snickers, now they have deep fried bacon. Makes me sick just thinking about it.
Now I get to rodeo and it's shopping, looking for the cutest bling anything I can find. Now I can actually fit into those beautiful bling things. In fact, I've made friends with some of the vendors and I'm getting percentages off everywhere kind of like my weight is falling off everywhere. It's fun when you don't have to try things on, you KNOW it is going to fit. I guess that's what happens when you lose 30 pounds. Yes only 7 more to go to reach the 37 pound goal but I think I'm going to go for 40 or 50. Can you imagine?
Now I'm not going to lie, I have indulged a little bit. The beer was flowing freely at cook-off, but with all the walking and lack of fried food I pushed the pounds away. I use to be the first to fill my plate of food in the suite before rushing to a meet and greet, now just a bite here and there. I HAVE taken a bite of the famous potato salad that's in the suite, but just a taste, not a scarf it down moment. I make better choices on my indulgences, a piece of sausage here, a bite of brisket there, a little dab of salsa with a few chips.
It's like a whole new me. I don't even really crave bad food. I crave things like salad, mmmm salad, and grilled chicken, or a nice piece of steak, maybe fajitas without the tortilla. It's weird. I think my brain has finally made the switch. Could this be the skinny me coming out? Am I becoming the skinny bitch I have always wanted to be? We shall see...
For now I leave you with a picture from the past week...